Friday, November 17, 2017

The Struggles and Growth of a Man Part 2 Releases December 15th!


For those who don't know, my first book is the Struggles and Growth of a Man. It's about a young man in his 20s named Robert who has learned a lot about life, daily struggles and trying to mature into the man he wants to be. He's been brainwashed about the world and his role as a man and he's trying to break from that mold.

If you haven't read the first book, you definitely should as it is a journey into the mind of a man, his daily struggles in life and also insight into our thinking. With Part 2 releasing on December 15th, this is the continuation of the series and it is an emotional roller coaster ride for Robert the main character.

The writing of this book was very emotional, impactful and also insightful as you learn more about Robert and how he deals with many adversities in his life. Part 2 delves into things that we all experience in life and you get to learn about Robert the man a lot more in this book.

So if you haven't bought Part 1, please go get it as the eBook is currently 99 cents until the release of Part 2 on December 15th. I want you all to get a chance to read Part 1 as it's a great read and I've received great feedback from readers.

Here's the link on Amazon to go get Part 1. Part 2 is also on pre-order on Amazon and all other major bookstores!

Be good everyone and go accomplish your goals!

Jamell Crouthers
Aquarianmind

Friday, November 10, 2017

I Don't Compete With Others, I Compete With Myself


The biggest thing for me is to get better at my craft everyday. Do you know how I do that? By competing with myself everyday. If I sat and worried about what everyone else is doing, I wouldn't have progress. I would not have published all of the books I have so far, I would not have written all of these poems and posted them on social media.

I always say you're only as good as the last accomplishment you achieved. Everyday I accomplish something on this journey of mine. Do I get complacent? Nope. Why? Because I have more to get done, I always have something that needs my attention.

I do everything on my own for the most part, I would say about 90% of it. There are a few things that I need other people to do for me and I pay them for it. Marketing my books, formatting my books, making book covers, doing interviews (I can't interview myself), I'm not good at everything. That's the self-awareness in me (as Gary Vaynerchuk would say).

For me, every poem I write about what I'm thinking, it's to engage and write better than that last poem. Most of my books are series and with each book, I'm looking to get better. I challenge myself daily and I believe in my talent and ability, that's what makes me special and unique.

I write poetry books on societal issues, something that's never been done. When I first started publishing books, I used to read articles on how to market myself. I would read things that said to study the competition, see how other authors got their audience and see how they do things. It's a good thing my mind told me not to do that because I wouldn't be where I am today if I didn't listen to my mind and my gut.

See, the type of books I write are totally different than what others are writing. I write stories and formulate them into poetry format. If you ever go on Amazon and read most of my reviews from my books, most people are surprised at how my book was written and they appreciated the hell out of it. That's what keeps me going and keeps me motivated and inspired.

So if you go on a journey to greatness, be mindful that you don't need to compete with others. Everyone's journey is different and what they have done may not work for you. Keep that in mind when you start thinking that you need to do things someone else's way.

Plus when you get to where you're supposed to be, you want to say that you did things your way. Which is the exact reason why I'd rather learn by doing instead of listening to gurus, spending money on classes on content that I can find for free on the internet for the most part.

Be good and go accomplish your goals.

Jamell Crouthers
Aquarianmind

Friday, November 3, 2017

Most People Can't Go On Your Journey



The one thing that I tell people a lot is that most people can't go on the journey that you're on. Here's why and I'll explain. You have the people who settle for mediocrity and will complain about their lives and not do a thing about it, and then there's the people who want to do better and will work at their craft on a daily basis. It's one or the other, when it comes to your life journey, it's black and white, no grey areas (at least in my eyes).

With that said, most of the people that I know are perfectly fine with their lives and where they are in life. They either have desk jobs working 9-5, go to the gym, watch ratchet television shows with no substance, wait for Friday and then go enjoy their weekends. Those are people who will not understand your goals, your vision and you striving for greatness. Nor will those people necessarily support you either so don't have any expectations from them either. Very few people will support you because they know that they don't have the mental drive to do what you're doing.

Now, the ones who don't support you want to see the end results when the lights are shining on you. They'll sit and watch your journey on social media (whether you choose to post that kind of content) like all of your posts and then when you come out of that dark tunnel and the lights are on you, they'll be the first ones to say they know you. Be careful of those people, always remember, there are very few who truly, "know you" and your journey. Most people know "of you" and will play the role of saying or thinking, they "know you."

You will lose a lot of friends along the way and you'll have family members who won't understand and support your journey either. All I can tell you is to keep going. I say these things because I've experienced them myself and you can only learn from experience.

Whatever your goals are, keep striving for them. When you accomplish one, move onto the next one. Continually set goals for yourself, it's how you stay motivated.

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Be good and go accomplish your goals.

Jamell Crouthers
Aquarianmind

Friday, October 27, 2017

I Wasted My 20s


The title speaks for itself. I wasted my 20s, on a lot of unnecessary things. That's just my reality when I sit back and reflect on my life and where I am now. No one can help but reflect on what was and what's going on now, the inevitable eventually happens.

You must be wondering how I wasted my 20s so I'll tell you. I went to college and got a degree in mass media communications (television production), and I was fortunate enough to work at some sports media companies. I honestly wanted to be a sports broadcaster but after a few years of chasing that dream, I let go. If you watch YouTube videos of me talking about the NBA, you would understand how much I wanted it.

Then I ventured into refereeing basketball (after 7 years I hung up the whistle) which drained my body and it took a toll on my knees and my back. Plus I lost the love to do it and all of the politics and bullshit that came with it. In between that I worked in retail for 2 big companies that are basically well-known world brands.

I know you're asking, how did I waste my time? Basically, I went down paths in Corporate America trying to, "make it" and I knew in my mind and heart that Corporate America was not for me. Once I master something and there's no longer a challenge, boredom kicks in. 

With my writing, there's always the challenge to get better, write something thought-provoking, even controversial things that'll ruffle a few feathers and make people uncomfortable. For me to have been writing since I was 13 and it took me 20 years to realize that my words can impact and resonate others is a shame.

I also wasted my 20s trying to find love and do what society expects of us, be in a relationship, get married, have kids, etc. So here I am, approaching my mid-30s with a totally different mindset. No marriage, no kids on my mind, just writing and wanting to be where all of the creators are...Los Angeles. 

Do I regret not focusing on my writing, yes and no. Yes because I could've had way more content but I hadn't learned about the realities of the world and how it works until my 30s. In my 20s it was you either got a publishing deal or your book wasn't getting published, now I have the freedom to control every aspect of the process.

I wish I did mentally focus on myself more in my 20s. I was too busy trying to make everyone else happy that I lost myself and my own happiness. So here I am, making up for lost time and publishing books every few months because I don't want to keep my talents and gifts from others.

I post a lot of free content which is my gift back to the world to say thank you for reading my words and appreciating me and my talent. I've owned up to the fact that I wasted my 20s, but I know that in my mind I would not have been able to write the books that I am writing now. 

So in a way, it's good and bad that I wasted my 20s. It's good because eventually I would myself, who I am, what I'm becoming and where my future is going. It's bad because I'm about 10 years behind in my writing which is why I'm making up for lost time now. 

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Thanks for reading, be good, accomplish your goals.

Jamell Crouthers
Aquarianmind

Saturday, October 21, 2017

Building Your Author Brand

It's so crucial and important to grow your author brand and it is something I am still learning and working on daily. I'm still a beginner as an author even though I've published 6 books in such a short amount of time. I am going to share with you websites that I use and also places you can get book reviews at decent prices so you're not spending a ton of money.

As a beginning author, trying to establish your audience all while making sure you're paying all of your necessary bills, I've learned to budget myself. Without further a do, here's the websites I use:

Social Media:
Facebook-creating your own author page to share what you're writing and have been working on is important. You can still share content on your personal page but you want to grow your audience and that's the key.
Instagram-you can use your personal page but I have a page for my poetry where I write about things going on in my life or things on my mind. It's different from what I write about in my books so it's a different perspective of my writing.
Twitter-a lot of authors have this platform as you can follow other authors and see what they write about. It's good to be on here because a lot of people will repost content you post about your writing and your books.
YouTube-you can post videos on what you're working on, any new content you've been working on and grow your audience that way, it's a win win!
Podbean-if you're looking to do podcasts, this is a free website and if you want added features, there are monthly plans you can pay for. I will be starting a podcast on this website in January 2018, I will definitely keep you guys on tabs with what's going on as I will be discussing societal issues and may have some guests on there!

Book Promotion:
Fiverr-this website allows you to find people who can promote your book for you. You can also be featured on other people's websites and blogs and find people who do radio shows. Anything helps to grow your author brand, right?

Book Reviews:
Literary Titan-a good place to get a book review, it does take a few weeks but they also help promote your book after they give you a review.
Bookplex-there are different options to choose from in how many book reviews you want and whether you want a certified book review to be posted on Amazon. Sometimes they run promotions where book reviews are at a lower price so keep a lookout for that.
Reader's Favorite-they accept every genre from any author, they only post 4 and 5 star reviews so if they feel your book is under 4 stars, they will e-mail you. Book promotion is included in your book review depending on what option you choose. There are different price points and you also get an opportunity to be put into a contest for authors which is awesome. I will be using this website soon and will let you know how things go.
Dragon Realm Press-from editing and proofreading to book reviews and marketing, this website offers a variety of different things. Unfortunately, you can choose options and pay upfront on the website, you have to e-mail them and it does take time for responses so choose wisely.

Author Profile:
Bublish-a website where you can post excerpts from your books and give insight into how you wrote your book(s). It's only $10 a month and they have webinars every few weeks to help you in growing your audience and your brand as an author.

Please take the time to checkout my Bublish page where you can get free content and some excerpts from my books. You can follow me on there and get notified when I post something new on there weekly. My Bublish page is my gift to everyone who reads my blogs daily and you can follow me on my social media pages.

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Sunday, October 15, 2017

Being an Entrepreneur Is Hard...Very Hard

One of my favorite people to follow, read on and watch his videos is Gary Vaynerchuk. You either like him or you don't, there's nothing in between. He's blunt, he's honest and he curses every few sentences to get his point across but that's just who he is. I watch some of his YouTube videos over and over again just to remind myself of the process I'm going through.

While he's in the business of sports, media and marketing, along with being an author himself, we share one big thing in common...we're both entrepreneurs. Being an entrepreneur is hard...very hard, and for many reasons. There's this false sense of reality that it's yachts, parties, pretty girls, champagne and living the life. The reality is, it's nowhere near that. It's work...a lot of work...and every single day.

Most people want to be entrepreneurs, run their own businesses and do whatever they want as far as work hours. You don't get breaks, there's always something that has to be done and within a short time frame. Given the fact that I'm an author, writer, blogger and screenwriter, people assume that I can just write whenever I want, and post content whenever I want. While that holds true, there's also the laziness factor that kicks in when you don't write consistently.

Even though I do write at my own pace and I don't force the issue (because most of my books are already written in my head), I do make sure that I'm consistently writing and challenging myself to the fullest potential that I can be. It's not because I have to, but because I want to. Every. Single. Day. There aren't many breaks for me.

I work a full-time job, plus write short poems, do YouTube videos, post content on social media, write my books, edit and proofread them, record my own audiobooks (which is coming soon) and I put a timeframe on when I want to complete things. It forces me to be diligent, hone my craft and keep my mind stimulated daily.

So I'm meticulously planning things on a regular basis. I'm constantly writing, "to do" lists weekly so I stay consistent in what I'm doing and the reason why I'm doing it. Some weeks I have to invest in things, some weeks I don't. I have to budget things, I have to plan release dates for books, sometimes I have to rearrange the order in how I want to release my books. I have to plan marketing strategies, get book reviews, do book exchanges sometimes and constantly stay afloat with what's going on in the social media space.

It's very time consuming and it drains me mentally, physically and emotionally. There are days I don't want to go to work and I want to just sit home and do things at my own pace. But, that's not how life works (at least for now). Eventually, I will get to a place where I'm just focusing on writing for hours every single day instead of a few days a week.

While I love the grind of this, it's hard and it's challenging. Everyday, I put in bare minimum of an hour into something and some days, I'm going at this process for 5-6 hours a day. No I don't work like Gary Vaynerchuk for 18 hours a day, that would burn me out. He's dedicated to his game and his process and I am dedicated to mine too.

Just know that if you ever decide that you want to be an entrepreneur and control your own destiny, it's a lot of work and every single thing will fall on you. You can enjoy the successes but there will be failures, bad investments and time wasted on projects you didn't need to do.

Along the way, it's all a learning process and you have to be ready for the grind. You have to be ready to be tired, drained, pissed off, angry, mad, happy, sad, depressed, stressed, gleeful and every other emotion and feeling that you can think of. Just embrace the journey, continually make goals and don't celebrate too much when you accomplish things. Also, don't share everything with the world, not everyone wants to see you doing better than them.

Be good, accomplish your goals and remember entrepreneurship is hard...very hard.

Jamell Crouthers
Aquarianmind

Friday, October 6, 2017

Writing A Book From Beginning To Publishing

When I meet people and we discuss the passions we have and what we do, when I tell people I'm a writer and author, the astonished faces that I see are amazing. It's like this surreal feeling that someone is actually speaking to a published author. Then comes the questions of what I write about, how I do it and if I went through a publishing company. Then I tell them I do it all on my own (90% of it, I'm not going to lie) and that I'm a self-published author.

To make things easier on people and just in case anyone comes across my blog and sees this blog post, I'm going to break down the whole process for me from beginning to publishing. I will address marketing and book reviews in another blog.

Brainstorming: This is the most important process to any book that you will write. I have a blue book that I use to write every single idea or concept for a book, my to-do lists along with each chapter for my books. I basically write anything and everything that comes to my mind. Even if it doesn't sound right, right away, eventually there will be a good 2-3 chapters that may not fit into what you're trying to write and the message you're trying to give to the readers.

Every book I've written goes through the brainstorming sessions which can take 1-3 days at a time. A lot of times, it can go longer but once I write down chapters, I will write what will be discussed in that chapter and with characters, there has to be story line development and whether it's going to sound good, it's well written and has substance. Most of this comes natural to me because of the fact that I've been writing for over 20 years and I've been honing my craft for so long. Along with that, I'm always writing shorter poems, screenplays and working on a plethora of other projects.

Book Title: This is harder than what you think. You don't want to have the same book title as others because it'll get lost in the shuffle on book websites. You also want to have a book title that grabs someone's attention and gets them intrigued (I still have issues with this after writing 6 books). You don't want anything boring and it sounds generic either. You want it to appeal to someone who comes across your book right away so don't lose sight of that.

Writing the Book: For some people, this is the hardest part for numerous reasons. People's schedules, lives, kids, family, distractions and plenty of other things. If you have a goal to finish a book by a certain time, stick to it. I talk to people who ask me about the process of publishing a book, I ask them, have you written the book and I get the answer, "not yet." You can't skip the important steps before even getting to the publishing process.

Write consistently, no matter what. It doesn't take me long to write books because I buckle down and get to work. That means I don't go out much, I don't hangout with friends, I don't let many things distract me and I know what my goals are. I hold myself accountable for my own lackadaisical ways and goofing around. If you need someone to keep you on track and pushing you, then do that. Otherwise, you won't finish your book and you'll concoct excuses as to why you can't finish your book or haven't finished it.

Editing/Proofreading: Honestly, I do this myself, it's my book, my content, why wouldn't I do it myself. I do miss things here and there. I haven't read a perfect book in my life. Certain sentences can be worded differently to sound right, sometimes a word gets misspelled, that's just part of it. If you're book is formatted correctly and can be read efficiently, then you're good to go.

If you want to pay someone to read over your book, go for it. If anything, get a family member or friend who loves to read to go over your book with you. Basically, find ways to keep your costs down when it comes to things like this, it'll benefit you in the long run if you're a new author.

Formatting: This is the most crucial part of your book, no if's and's or but's about it. Especially for paperbacks which will be your bread and butter. eBooks is important too because you don't want your book to look sloppy and unreadable. While there are plenty of places and websites you can use, I go with Fiverr to get someone to format my books.

I have someone who is amazing at it, he copyrights it all for me, and formats it to where you can see the title of the book on the top and my name on there. Using people who have high ratings, great reviews, you can spend $50-100 dollars instead of hundreds of dollars.

Depending on how long your book is, word count and the sizing you want will determine your price. Oh and don't forget to tip them when you get your masterpiece back!

Book Cover: To answer the question before it's even asked, no you don't have to spend $500 dollars for an extravagant book cover. Once again I use Fiverr and I've found someone who does great work for me. They made my book covers for Code Blue: An Oath to the Badge and Gun and America Under Mind Control.

For my other books, I made them myself by using canva.com. It's a website where you can make your own book covers for eBook and paperbacks. It's a great website, but sometimes the options are limited but those are the websites I've used to create book covers.

Synopsis: You want to talk about your book and what it's about but not too much. It makes sense but then it doesn't. If you give too much information about the book, then there's no incentive to buy it. If you give too little, then it's not enticing enough to get someone to buy your book. So there has to be a common ground in what will work and what won't. The good part is you can change it a few times before it officially hits bookstores and is on sale.

Stress the important aspects of the plot and story line and discuss your main character briefly. You have to draw readers into what you're writing about and why. A good 6-8 lines about your book should be sufficient enough to get readers drawn in. If you need help with it, there's nothing wrong with that, always remember that.

Book Publishing: The easiest way to get your books to a bunch of bookstores is to use a website that will give you that opportunity. I use Draft2digital because it allows you to send your books to all of the major book retailers except Amazon. I created an Amazon account separately and used Createspace (owned by Amazon) to create my paperbacks.

Draft2Digital has an easy menu and layout and they guide you step by step on how to get your books out to all readers. You get to choose what bookstores you want to publish them on and it saves you the time from having to create accounts for every bookstore such as Barnes and Noble, Apple, Scribd and many others.

Createspace can be a little meticulous with creating your paperback but there are representatives that are available 24 hours a day to help you with the process of creating your paperback. You're also allowed to order 5 proofs so you can see them before publishing them to Amazon.

Pricing: As a first time author, it's totally up to you with pricing but if you make it too high for eBooks and/or paperbacks, you won't see many sales. If you're an unknown and you want people to take a chance on you, have an audience before your book is published, have a few reviews and have a low price point for the time being.

Sometimes you can drop your price to 0.99 cents and get some sales and if you get reviews for those, that boosts your book on Amazon. Promotions are key and important but that'll be discussed in the next blog.

That's the process with my books and how I do everything. Your journey doesn't have to be the same as mine but there is some good information I provided.

Be good and accomplish your goals.

Jamell Crouthers
Aquarianmind









Friday, September 29, 2017

My Success

I've accomplished a lot in my life (so what other people say), which is true in a lot of ways. The crazy thing is those things don't define me at all. I graduated high school, college and worked for some of the biggest companies in this country and the world. I'm not gonna go naming companies because that's not what this blog is about. 

None of those jobs I've had even mattered and the one I have now doesn't matter to me either. I work for the biggest and most well-known hospital in the U.S. and it doesn't phase me. People make a big deal when they see my résumé but it doesn't matter to me. 

See Corporate America doesn't work for me, I don't fit in it and it doesn't fit into my life, my talents and goals. Corporate America to me is monotony, there's no change (maybe in company policies or departmental changes) but in hindsight, it's the same routine every. fucking. day. Waking up at the same time and doing the same routines. Basically being a programmed robot.

My biggest success and accomplishment in my life was writing and publishing my first book. The Struggles and Growth of a Man was the game changer to my life. That's when I realized my purpose in life. It's to inspire, motivate and empower others and to break people out of societal standards and expectations. It's to get people to think about themselves, their lives, the environment they live in and to stop their bad thinking habits.

With every book that followed, to me, that was more success. With every new book idea, that's success. With every small poem I write, that's success. With every person that I reach and get to critically think about life, I've done my job. Some days I write, most I don't. I don't put pressure on myself to do it, which I why I very rarely get writer's block. My words just flow and I'm glad that my words can resonate with others.

Sometimes I lose track of my successes and forget that I'm impacting others. There isn't going to be any defining moment to me that says, "I'm successful." For me, it started the moment I brainstormed my first session on my first book and wrote about a character named Robert that relates to me and a lot of the struggles I deal with as a man in his 30s. Especially in a crazed world where your mind can drift all over the place because of a plethora of distractions daily. 

If I ever become a best selling author or I start getting recognized for my work and what I'm doing, that's when people will start saying that I'm successful. It's funny how life works and how the world manages to program and train your mind to think and define success as awards, accolades, being on a television screen or being heard behind a microphone. 

Everyone has their own definition of success, I've just learned and realized that I don't need a huge house, expensive cars and lavish this to show off to the world. I'm already successful, I just have the bigger goal of having millions of people reading my books and being impacted by my words. I honestly only want to take care of my parents, buy a townhome, drive a Genesis G70 and travel the world.

As mentally draining at this process is, it's worth it. I just would rather be focused on the journey everyday instead of some days. Having a full-time job cuts into a lot of what I'm trying to do and accomplish. But eventually I'll figure out how I can focus on my writing more and less on things that don't matter to me.

Don't let society determine what you think success is. Stay humble in the process and know that most people don't care and they only will when the light is shining on you. Not many will walk with you through the dark tunnel. 

Stay focused and take mental breaks when needed. 

Be good

Jamell Crouthers
Aquarianmind 

Tuesday, September 19, 2017

My Books Aren't For Everyone

The inevitable was going to happen...I got my first bad review of one of my books...the book...America Under Mind Control. Is it bothering me? Nope. Do you want to know why? Because there's way too many catastrophic events going on in this world to be griping about one bad review.

The reality is, my books aren't for everyone. I won't post the review on here because for one, it'll drive attention to the reviewer and that's surely not my goal. Secondly, it'll make me look like someone who's petty and mad and the reality is, I'm not and I don't care that much.

The reason why I'm writing this is because a lot of people who write don't know how to handle and deal with criticism and bad reviews. For me, it doesn't bother me because I've dealt with plenty of criticisms in my life about who I am and many others things. At the end of the day, we're all growing, human beings trying to better ourselves (or so I hope).

America Under Mind Control was written to get people to think about what's going on in America today. The reviewer said I need to do research and I was paranoid about too many things. To me, research isn't necessary on subject matter that's right in front of our faces. Things that are being done intentionally to try and keep us under control from the decisions we make to the food we eat to the things we buy.

This is the only book so far that when people read it, they're not going to agree with plenty of things I say. That's why I wrote it, to bring more discussion to what's going on in the world today. I'm trying to change the world one book at a time and the more readers that read it, the better it is to have an open forum on the subject matter that I wrote about.

I tackled a lot of topics and if you don't get it, that's perfectly fine. It's a lot to take in all at once and I've already learned that not everyone is going to like my books. For one, I write my books in poetry format and it's about societal issues. So going in, it's not the traditional book and secondly, you don't know what to expect. I like knowing that when a reader gets their hands on my book.

So to all of the writers, authors, bloggers and creators, keep writing. Chicken Soup for the Soul and the Harry Potter series didn't take off right away and those are some of the best selling books of all-time. My goal isn't bestseller status and getting accolades, I do this because I love it, it's my passion and I feel I'm blessed with a talent to impact others.

I want people to feel, emote and express themselves and that one reviewer did that. I could respond on Goodreads where the review is posted but there's no need to. You're not going to be liked by everyone and your talents and abilities aren't going to resonate with everyone.

I love the grind, and I loved getting that review. It only motivates me more and keeps me going. I've dealt with enough rejections in my life from not getting into the high school I wanted, the college I wanted, jobs not hiring me, not making it as a sports broadcaster and many other things. I guess that's what keeps me humble in this whole process. I never get too high and I never get too low, I'm always even and level-headed. I try to stay in the moment and keep striving for greatness.

No matter how far I go in this, I will always be thankful for the readers and the fans that I do have so far. So keep going everyone, life is a journey we must embrace.

Be good and go accomplish those goals!

Jamell Crouthers
Aquarianmind

Monday, September 11, 2017

The Characters I Write About In My Books

When I began writing, I never really thought I was going to write as many books as I have. I surely didn't think I would have this many book ideas that would come to me. But with so many societal issues that are going on, I knew that I could write about characters that would resonate with others. Throughout my reviews, people have felt and emoted through reading about these different characters that I write about.

I choose not to share my reviews on my blogs because you can easily go to my Amazon page or Goodreads page and see them yourself, my goal isn't to be boastful about my reviews that I receive from people.

The Struggles and Growth of a Man

Robert was created out of people that I know and have experienced things living in a bad neighborhood and going through struggles in their lives. Some of his experiences emotionally are things that I've felt and gone through. A lot of the other things I write about were experiences friends have gone through and also seeing bad neighborhoods that I've lived in or have gone through at some point while living in New York City.

I knew that I had to get people drawn into him early on in my first book so it keeps you the reader reading the book. It's a journey through life with Robert and Part 2 (coming in December) will be nothing short of more experiences that he'll experience in his life. This series of books is to open people's eyes to what masculinity is and why society has brainwashed us men into thinking that being mentally, physically and emotionally tough is not what makes a real man.

Code Blue: An Oath to the Badge and Gun

Gary is a police officer on the force and while we all have this perception of what a police is or should be, I wanted to shine light on the interpersonal thoughts that may go on inside of their minds. I wanted to bring some emotion to this book of how there just might be that one police officer who knows the wrongs that are going on but he/she hasn't figured out a way to make it right without sacrificing their careers.

I needed to bring a perspective that no one has seen in books related to the police and I wanted to write it from a police officer's perspective. There's a lot of emotion that goes into it because Gary has a son that wants to be a police officer too and he has a family who loves and cares about him in so many ways. So there's a sense of what to do, guilt, thinking about other people's families, something that is not done with his superiors within the department and the police commissioner of the city.

So that's my thought process while writing these books. The World We Live In Series, with 19 characters, I'll delve into those characters and my thought process with them in my next blog. The World We Live In Part 3 releases on Friday by the way!

In the meanwhile, please take sometime and look at my books on Amazon and if you like one, you know what to do! My books are on other platforms (Barnes & Noble, Kobo, Scribd, Tolino, 24 Symbols and many more).

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Sunday, August 27, 2017

The Sacrifices to Success

When you finally make the decision to carve your own path to success, you'll soon realize that you'll have to make sacrifices to get there. You will not know in the beginning what those sacrifices will be but as time goes on, you'll soon figure them out.

You'll learn that you'll have to watch less television to get your work done. You may have to wake up earlier or work late into the night to get things done. You'll have to stop going out every weekend and only go out some weekends to get the work your need to get done.

There will be family events you'll have to miss, birthday parties, maybe even some weddings, especially when you're determined to live the life that you want and impact others. No one ever tells you these things which is why I tell you now what it takes.

Anytime, I have downtime, I'm either thinking, planning, strategizing, writing, marketing or brainstorming. Your drive will keep you going and you won't take many days off. Even when you take time off, you'll feel like you're not getting anything done.

You will be tired all of the time, especially if you have a full-time job while trying to get your own business going yourself. Sleep is something you'll cherish as most of my days are 18 hours on average except on the weekends where I get more rest time. Being an entrepreneur can't be done by everyone. Honestly, I don't hang around too many people who are striving for greatness. I have a few fellow Aquarians like me who are working as arduously as me but beyond that, there aren't many people.

You'll lose motivation daily but you have to think of the bigger goal and why you're doing it. Whether it's to impact people, the world, live comfortably or a combination of all three. It's never going to be easy and I realized that early on. If it was easy, everyone would be doing it and there would be a lot of rich people walking around in the world.

The point is whatever you put into your work, just keep going. Whether you work on things for hours at a time or a few minutes a day, it's getting you closer to your goals (whatever those may be). So be prepared for the sacrifices you'll have to make to get to where you want to be. I know I am, but are you?


Be good everyone and work to accomplish your goals!

Aquarianmind

Friday, August 4, 2017

20 Books by 2020

The biggest goal for me is to publish 20 books by year 2020. GOD willing I live that long, I know that this is something that I WILL accomplish. The biggest thing about doing what you love is to set high goals and standards for yourself. Which is the reason why I don't celebrate many accomplishments that I achieve. There's a bigger goal and a bigger picture for me and there's more than just publishing a book.

I have a vision and I want millions of people to be reading my books and coming away with something after reading it. I don't want to be the author who just publishes books and goes on about my business. The process of writing the book until completion where I release it to the public is exhilarating and really exciting.

When I wake up on Friday's, Saturday's and Sunday's, there is this excitement brewing inside of me that I'm going to do what I want to do for the day which is working on my projects. No matter how much I do for the day, there's a sense of fulfillment at the end of those days that I've done the necessary things to get myself to the next step in my writing journey.

With that said, book #6 will be released on September 15th and it's the continuation of The World We Live In Series. This will be Part 3 of 5 in the series and I plan on releasing part 4 and 5 sometime next year back to back and that'll be the ending of the series of those books. There's a reason behind it and sometimes you don't want to drag a series and feel forced into writing content. But, I promise that the last book of the series will be a great ending to all of my 19 characters. If you haven't started reading the books, please do, I promise it'll be worth the read.

You can find my books on Amazon and all other major bookstores. Be good and do what you love. Turn your dreams into reality because eventually, I'm leaving Corporate America myself.

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Jamell Crouthers
Aquarianmind

Sunday, July 9, 2017

Challenging Yourself

The biggest part of growth in what you're doing is challenging yourself. To keep from the boredom hitting, it's always good to take up a new challenge. With me, I've always written poems, I have written 5 books in poetry format. Now I've taken the next step to writing screenplays and films. It's one of the biggest challenges I've done in quite some time.

My newfound love and venture as stated in my previous blogs started when I first got back home from my LA trip. Since then, I've been focused on writing different films dealing with societal issues that we face today. I've been working on long films but also short films. That's the new thing in today's television and movie world, the shorter films.

I've written some short films and my newest one is about a young teenager who has multiple personality disorder (dissociative identity disorder). Writing short films, you have to always delve into the subject matter quickly or you'll lose your audience. Plus, you don't have long to get your point across in what message you're trying to tell.

Short films are challenging as they can be from 8-15 pages and depending on what people are looking for, you have to be cognizant of the content and whether you can write it in that page frame. Me challenging myself to write and focus on different areas, it's allowing me to be diverse in my writing and not being fixated on one specific subject area.

So when you're faced with being stagnant or bored in anyway, step outside of your comfort zone and do something different with your passion. You will be surprised at how gifted and talented you are in other subject areas than you thought.

I truly appreciate everyone reading my blogs. You can find me on my social media pages below:

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Be good, follow your dreams and continue to challenge yourselves.

Jamell Crouthers
Aquarianmind



Friday, June 30, 2017

My Feature In Writer's Life Magazine

Sometimes you never know what opportunities in life will come your way. I was blessed to be featured in Writer's Life Magazine. I was able to connect with the editor of the magazine and was given an opportunity to be in the magazine for the summer edition. The magazine was just realized a week ago and it's one of the biggest accomplishments of my life. 

Granted the magazine isn't huge, the fact that I'm featured in it, it's very fulfilling. The pictures are below and if you want to see a digital or print copy the website is this link here. Writers Life Magazine

I hope you all enjoy reading the magazine!



Be good and follow your goals

Jamell Crouthers
Aquarianmind

Sunday, June 25, 2017

My Uncertainty and Writing Struggles

From February 2016 all the way to today, I've been writing so much. The thing is I don't truly feel accomplished. It's probably because most of the world doesn't even know I exist or that I even write. You get to this place of uncertainty wondering if you should continue doing what you love to do. I've finally figured out my purpose in life and now here I am questioning if this is even worth it anymore.

You start to question how much time do I spend trying to get myself out to the world and what's worth spending money on and what isn't. I've spent money on so many things and a lot of my investments have been a waste of time.

With 5 books published, another 3 books written and ready for publication, a screenplay script completed with another one almost done, I should feel accomplished, right? Well...no I don't, even with me recently being published in a magazine for authors. I guess the thing for me is, I don't feel like wasting years of my life to be noticed for my talent and abilities. So maybe I want some notoriety now because the reality is, tomorrow isn't guaranteed and the real truth is we're all going to die eventually, we just don't know when.

People tell you to write because you love it. I do love it but I don't want to be writing the rest of my life while working some Corporate America job that I'm not supposed to be working in at all. Then comes the question of when do I quit and walk away from the stable full-time job I'm bored from with medical benefits that I barely pay into as my job pays more toward it.

These are the conundrums that people face when they have a passion for something but feel stuck in a rut. The main reason for me writing this post is to share my reality and my truths of what I deal with and go through on a regular basis. I've realized that too many of my previous posts were all too positive and uplifting, now it is time to talk about my struggles.

My book sales aren't that high, I can't get an agent to represent me for my screenplay and I'm mentally tired from my job. My writing should be my career and that's what I should be able to focus on every single day of my life. Honestly, I have no motivation to do it most days and it shouldn't be this much of  a struggle. I can't be walking in a dark tunnel forever because that does no justice for me. There needs to be a glimmer of light that shines.

Who knows when I'll take that leap of faith and just not care anymore about stability. Maybe my life needs to be a little crazy before stability settles in with my writing. Maybe I need to just pack my bags and move to Los Angeles like I've been wanting to for so long.

My social media pages are where you can find me:

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Be good everyone,

Jamell Crouthers
Aquarianmind

Monday, May 29, 2017

The Mind of a Writer/Update On My Writing

One thing about writers, whether you're an author, poet, blogger, screenwriter, your mind is always processing thoughts and ideas. To be honest, we very rarely take breaks (unless it's a necessity such as being burnt out, vacation, family or any other circumstances). For me, it's very hard to take breaks, or should I just say they don't last very long.

You would think that with my next three books that I'm publishing between now and the beginning of next year that I'd take a break from writing. Nope. Not. For. One. Second. I'm still writing and sharing content (feel free to follow me on instagram: www.instagram.com/aquarianmind). Currently I'm posting love poems on there that I've written a few months ago. It was a book but now I've decided to post those for free, it's a different avenue than what I normally write about which is societal issues.

A few weeks ago, I went to Los Angeles for a vacation but also to network and meet people in the business. I met some great people and the one thing that was told to me was to start writing scripts/films. Granted I've seen what scripts look like, I never wrote one and in my mind, "how am I going to write a script?" The reality is I write books in poetry format on societal issues.

So I rode on my 5 hour flight back to the east coast researching scripts, how to write them, learning about the business, how it works and also thinking of what in the world I could write about that would get someone's attention. Let's just say I took it on as a challenge to write a script, develop a storyline and build a few good characters that would be appealing to an audience.

I ended up writing a script on 4 women who are best friends who find a platform of poetry to express the struggles they deal with and go through. It was one of the biggest challenges in my life but when I finished it, it felt exhilarating and I felt so accomplished.

I can surely say it's a whole different realm than writing a book. Writing books, you can write what's on your mind. When writing a script, you're writing what's on your mind but you're also describing every action that's going on and how you want to portray the story. Writing books, you have to create imagery more, with screenwriting, the imagery is there but the actions have to come out. Right now, my script is currently being submitted to a few places to see if it'll be picked up.

When you find your love and passion and you're blessed with a gift and talent, don't waste it, utilize it to the best of your ability. I've now got the itch to develop another script but that won't stop me from writing my books though. You should always keep your options open and available.

My new book Code Blue: An Oath to the Badge and Gun releases Friday, June 16th. I will also be featured in Writer's Life Magazine: Summer Edition. I'll keep everyone updated with the release date of the magazine. In the meanwhile, here's the link to pre-order my book on Amazon: http://amzn.to/2pfG9RD

Be good everyone and follow your dreams.


Jamell Crouthers
Aquarianmind



Friday, May 12, 2017

The One Question I Get Asked As An Author

Recently, I had a long conversation with my dad about my writing, publishing my book and the business. We discussed my recent books I've published, my next one coming in mid-June and he gets engaged about my plans and goals with these books. Then came that one question I knew was eventually coming from my dad. Would I take a book deal from a publishing company. He tossed me a large amount of money scenario and I paused for moment and thought about it.

When I formulated my thoughts I eventually said to my dad I wouldn't and here are the reasons why. For starters, I like being in control of everything that I'm doing (writing, proofreading, book covers, synopsis, marketing, social media, getting book reviews, setting my book prices, doing promotions, etc.). I told my dad it's hard for me to let go of all that I do regarding my goals and my vision.

For me, it's hard to put trust into people who want a piece of the pie. I'm not saying to people who have aspirations to have a book deal to not do it. I'm very fixated on building my author brand and also my brand in general. I don't mind getting input and advice from people, but to be told what to do, that's not something I like dealing with.

I've spent a large percentage of my life being told what to do so for once in my life, I'm in control of my own destiny, I get to do things my way. If it doesn't work, then I can say I tried, didn't succeed, learn from it and then get better at things. Obviously, I'm not good at formatting my books for paperbacks, I'm not good at making great book covers, so I'm willing to pay people money to do those things for me. Some book covers I made myself, some I've paid someone to make it for me. I won't divulge those people but let's just say I get a good deal on my formatting and book covers.

Nothing is worse than walking into a party with a pizza pie and everyone wants a piece a slice. That's how I see the business of book publishing companies. So the big publishing companies will invest into you, but it's only after you've achieved all of the success on your own. Why would I all of a sudden put trust into a publishing company after I've done it all on my own? I'm making 70% doing it on my own, I'll be lucky if I could even get 50% from the head honchos in the book industry.

On top of that, I've planned 4 books to be published this year, I've published one, the next one is coming and the other two are already completed and the 3rd book coming in September, I have a book cover for it. Next year, my goal is to publish 5 books and I will be doing that going forward. So for me, a publishing company will be restricting me from my goals and vision of publishing content every 10-12 weeks.

No, this isn't a bashing post on book publishing companies but the reality is, they're on a significant decline from the outside looking in. People are going the self-publishing route and it's working for a lot of authors. It's just like bookstores aren't lasting as much anymore because the newer generation are reading eBooks more granted paperbacks are still popular but easily accessible on Amazon, Barnes and Nobles and other bookstore websites. You can easily order a book online and have it at your door within 1-2 days.

Okay, so back to the subject at hand, I can get sidetracked sometimes. I always feel it's good for writers and authors to learn the business, do research, learn how to do things, make mistakes, fall on your butt and then get back up and learn from it. Make a few bad investments (which I've done), make mistakes with your books (my books were 8 x 10 and I had to resize them to 6 x 9).

At the end of the day, I enjoy the grind, I enjoy the process of doing this all on my own. It's more work but I'd rather it be this way than trusting a plethora of other people to do something but it's your vision. The best advice I can give for aspiring authors and writers is to do the work on your own in the beginning. Submitting your work to literary agents and publishing companies is a tedious and arduous process and by the time you spend months trying to get a deal, you could've published your own book.

I'm not about awards and accolades, I don't do this for the likes and popularity. I just want people to read my stories, feel, emote and be impacted by what I'm sharing and take a moment to think about the issues we face in everyday society and how they can make the world a better place.

Remember, my new book Code Blue: An Oath to the Badge and Gun will be released on June 16th so if you want to preorder my book on the major bookstores, please do so!


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Be good and follow your dreams!


Jamell Crouthers
Aquarianmind

Saturday, April 29, 2017

Interview With Writer's Life Magazine

Hey everyone!

I hope all is well and everyone is having a great week and start to their weekend. I know, I'm long overdue for a new blog post, I was on vacation in Los Angeles for a week so I took sometime to enjoy life a little, and also take a mental break from the grind of my day job along with all of the writing I do. I wanted to share my interview with Writer's Life Magazine, it was a great opportunity to do this so people can get to know me better as a writer and author.

I will also be featured in their magazine in the summer edition coming in June. There isn't a definite date set yet but I will definitely keep everyone posted with that information as it becomes available to me. I enjoyed doing this interview and the editor LaDonna Smith, I am forever thankful for the opportunity to be part of the project.

This is not only about me growing as an author and as a brand, but also bringing more exposure to the great media outlets, young and up and coming authors can use to build their platform. Here's the link to the interview: Interview With Writer's Life Magazine

I hope everyone enjoys reading it and my new book Code Blue: An Oath to the Badge and Gun will be released on June 16th! Pre-orders for e-books are available now: Code Blue Amazon Link

Be good everyone and follow your dreams!


Friday, April 14, 2017

Code Blue: An Oath to the Badge and Gun (New Book Coming Soon!)

My next book, "Code Blue: An Oath to the Badge and Gun," will be coming within the next few weeks. It's a book that deals with a police officer on the force where there's a lot of corruption going on within the police department. There was a lot of reasons for writing this book and I know that the issue of police brutality and killings needed to be addressed.

Even though this book is a fictional story written in poetry format, this book deal with racism that goes beyond measure. It's a book that will make you feel uncomfortable if you're not open-minded to the racist atrocities that go on in today's society. I enjoyed writing this book as this will get you to think about the societal issues we face with relationships between police officers and the citizens of our society. 

There's a hope that people start to understand that racism is a major issue not just in America, but also around the world and we must get to a place where there's acceptance of everyone within our society. I want people to read the book and come away knowing that there needs to be more diligence with establishing better relationships between police officers and citizens. 

This book will be ready for pre-order soon but here's a sneak peek of the book cover and what it looks like. 

 
Be good and follow your dreams.

Jamell Crouthers 
Aquarianmind 

Friday, April 7, 2017

Why I Don't Celebrate My Accomplishments

I'm going to talk about why I don't celebrate my accomplishments because a lot of my family and friends always ask me why I don't. For starters, life for me as a writer, author, poet and blogger, it's a lot of work all of the time and regularly. So for me, I don't really take too much time to celebrate any of my accomplishments whether it's a great poem I wrote, a solid blog I've posted on here, or a book that I've finished and published.

It's hard for me to celebrate publishing my books and getting my books noticed. I always feel there is work for me to do and more goals to accomplish. Every book published, new video I do on YouTube (www.youtube.com/c/jamellcrouthers), poem that I post on Instagram (www.instagram.com/aquarianmind), there's an opportunity for me to reach someone or impact someone's life.

In my own little way, celebrating makes you complacent, it can make you lazy and allow your head to get bigger than what it is. So I try to stay as humble as possible and keep grinding through everything I have to do. I spend most of my days writing down things I need to do and goals I want to accomplish for the week, it keeps me going. I'm basically in competition with myself and how much I can get done or how much I can write.

My writing book that I keep with me all of the time, I know that an idea can come up, and I can write down something important that I have to do. When you find your love and passion in life, you find yourself not celebrating until you reach the top of the mountain. Right now, I'm climbing this mountain and it's a journey to get to the top. And even when I get to the stop, I won't slow down, I'll keep going to make sure I stay on top of that mountain I climbed.

While my books are in poetry format, that doesn't mean I won't stop going hard to get my books noticed. I have different ways and tactics that I'm currently using to get myself noticed and get myself to where I want to be.

So I won't celebrate until millions of people are reading my books, my stories and knowing that there are many societal issues that need addressing.

Be good everyone and follow your dreams.

Jamell Crouthers


Saturday, April 1, 2017

Societal Issues That Plague Us

While I discuss a lot of societal issues in my poetry and in my books, there are so many things that we as people need to talk about more and bring to the forefront. It's no longer about talking to our family members about things, it needs to be discussed amongst our peers so we can better understand each other and make changes to the world.

The Struggles and Growth of a Man is a book about a man who struggles with what the world tells him and what his truth really is. While there is a Part 2 coming later on in the year, the focus is to make people understand that men struggle, we need help, we need guidance, we need to emote, feel and express ourselves. We need people to stop letting the world/society brainwash us into thinking men have to be tough and strong all of the time. That's detrimental to our mindsets and it keeps us from growing and learning from our mistakes.

The World We Live In Parts 1 and 2 is a series of 5 books that I'll be publishing about societal issues that plague us every single day. Rape, domestic violence, pedophilia, alcoholism, PTSD, body image, drug addiction, gambling addiction, bullying, sexuality, and many other issues that I address in these books. These characters bring out all of the emotions and feelings that you can relate to. There is at least 1 character out of the 19, I write in this book where you will feel something and relate to them.

America Under Mind Control is a book that addresses issues in America that we don't even realize go on amongst us everyday. We are controlled mentally on an everyday basis and we as a nation and country have to do better in getting control of our lives again, holding the government and other evil people in this country accountable for their actions.

With all of that said, there are societal issues that if we don't take the time to tackle them head on, this world is heading into a place of hell where there will be no turning back at that point. Let's do all that we can to make this world a better place to live in, not only for us, but for the future behind us.

Be good and follow your dreams

Jamell Crouthers




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Thursday, March 23, 2017

The Concept Behind America Under Mind Control

The concept behind me writing America Under Mind Control was to enlighten people on how much we are controlled mentally on a daily basis. What we fail to realize is society programs and trains our minds to act and be a certain way. Whether we know it or not, we surely don't take the time to understand the messages being conveyed to us everyday.

From the moment we are coherent and able to speak as little children, there are messages being told to us. While we don't realize that as children, as we get older, we should start to grasp the concept that the world does anything and everything to control our minds and keep us separated from each other.

Let's just take the education system for example, which is something I do delve into toward the end of my book, do you remember anything that you were taught in school? Besides the basics of learning the alphabet, learning to write and simple functions of math, how much of what you were taught actually relates to your life?

You ever take the time to question what you were taught in your history books and science books? Probably not because you took everything those teachers taught you at face value. Meanwhile, a lot of it were all lies but at this point, how much do we care?

We were taught to be obedient in school, respect authority, don't question what you're being told. You ever catch yourself sitting with someone or in a meeting with people and you have your hands folded most of the time? Yup, that was indoctrinated into your mind and you subconsciously do it now because you did it so much repetitively that it's ingrained in your mind.

This all works perfectly into a Corporate America environment where you are to respect authority, don't challenge the big bosses and do what your told. America teaches you to go to college, bury yourself in debt, get a plethora of degrees only to be paying loans back a large percentage of your life which makes you what? An average American citizen.

You ever notice you're not taught the most important aspects of life? Critical thinking, cognitive thinking, challenging yourself and others. The most important things you learn in life you learn on your own or through others, opening a bank account, money management, stocks and bonds, buying a car, buying a home, building and growing your own business. Imagine if we were taught through hands on experiences (which is what life mostly is when you think about it), but that's not what the rich and wealthy want from you.

Take the time to just think about that alone and then imagine how many other things the wealthy people are doing to control your mind. I tackle things such as music and radio, television, our shopping habits, print media, gun control, technology, credit cards, gambling, student loans, the food you eat, politics, diseases and medicine and many other things.

Until we start understanding and realizing the world around us, we will continue to be average, we aren't meant to live a life like that. If you have an open mind about life and the world, my book is definitely worth reading, it's available on Amazon and other bookstores.


Saturday, March 11, 2017

America Under Mind Control-Book Review

Hey everyone,

I hope all is well, I've been really busy promoting my new book, "America Under Mind Control." I had my book reviewed by Realistic Poetry International and they felt it was a great read. Here's the book review below:

Mind control, poetry, truth and lies.” - R P I

America Under Control Mind Control & Society Jamell Crouthers “America Under Control” is a jaw dropping epic, pertinent to our society today and significant to the future ahead. The author is well-known for his demanding and focused agenda to enlighten the world with a robust of knowledge he has acquired in deciphering some of the world's most convoluted and controversial societal twists and inadequacies; and according to Jamell, the twisted American paradox currently dominating the mainstream limelight is intentional and ultimately dangerous. But why? Don’t worry, after reading this book, “why” will quickly become a rhetorical question!

Because this is one author who really puts poetry’s power to full use in an honest and sincere effort to impel change. And through an array of specific societal topics such as “fashion brands”, “sex and porn”, “gambling”, “student loans”, “corporate America”, the “educational system” and many more, a convincing presentation of poetry that is nearly impossible to dismiss, thoroughly challenge the authenticity of America’s integrity and principles woven into the great red, white, and blue.

Diving right into it, Jamell doesn’t waste any time in explaining where he believes the corrupt sinister American legacy originated from in his poem “Rothschild Family”. For those of you who aren’t familiar with the infamous name, in the words of the narrator;

“Were one of the 13 families that run and control every aspect of the world…….worth 500 trillion dollars and counting…” 

Wow! The idea of such a reality is indeed immense to take in, yet certainly plausible. But what we happen to find most intriguing about this notion is the evil, manipulation, and treachery involved with this wealthy family’s notorious reputation. Using a first person’s writing technique, Crouthers writes the poem as if he is literally one of the Rothschild members (very dramatic!) vividly divulging all of the details most conspiracists would put their life on the line to obtain!

Microchips? Human sacrifices? New World Orders? Even If you question the author’s personal perspective, one can’t help but wonder, what if?

The unnerving introduction from the fictionalized voice of a wealthy Rothschild affiliate warns us of what author Jamell’s book entails; mind control. His featured poem “Music and Radio” describes the hidden motive behind creating certain types of music with subliminal implications of negative, destructive, and detrimental doctrine to usher everyday civilians and citizens into unconsciously making reckless and erroneous decisions to help support their “hidden” agenda, spend more money, and inevitably become a blind “follower” along with hundreds and thousands of others confounded by their thick, black cloud of murkiness.

The essence of this poem is to simply highlight the severe contradiction found in music industries and business that enables companies to (by all means) irresponsibly provoke an uncultured society while ignoring the damage being inflicted to not only a more youthful, immature, and impressionable society, but to us all. We are truly moved by this poem, as we are endearingly passionate supporters of the youth, in which it seems crucial for adults, parents, and leaders to be sensitive and genuinely considerate when analyzing the human beings overall development. Nonetheless, Jamell ends this ensemble with a direct message…or shall we say warning, saying;

“You can’t escape me, I’m not that far away and I’m always near. I know you want to live well and rich, don’t you? Don't you want the Lamborghini and that huge mansion? Yeah I know you that’s what I want you to be, greedy, I’m music and I control you, every….single….day”;

Riveting and tremendously ominous! Delving even deeper, this book includes a poem entitled “Sex and Porn” to help the audience see beyond the common perspective of both terms, which usually tends to endorse sex only as a commodity, rather than an act shared between two established or committed individuals (and porn as an innocent form of entertainment that’s merely exciting, fun, and satisfying). Jamell turns up the heat a bit and tells it like it is, in other words, no sugarcoating to protect any feelings when he writes;

“sexual gratification is what we all want, don’t we? It’s not about intellectual conversation with someone…” and then;

“morals and values aren’t necessary in today’s society. Explore your inhibitions with a plethora of people, isn’t it about satisfying your sexual wants and desires”,

using carefree and simplistic ‘modern day’ thinking in this statement as a prime example of an individual deemed to be conditioned and blinded to the corrupt and immoral agenda inspired by unparalleled powerheads such as the Rothschild family. It is critical to understand the underlying meaning of Jamell’s presentation in this poem which is; popular forms of entertainment such as porn and sex are purposely endorsed, promoted, and allowed not merely for our own pleasure, but to specifically 1.) Plant the seed of addiction in the mind and 2.) Warp traditional morals, values, and principles and condone promiscousity in addition to lewd behavior.

What we find particularly interesting about the author’s technique in displaying all of this disturbing information is how he personifies all of the key sources world leaders have at hand to make their job of brainwashing all the more expedient…and easy! For instance, music, copulation, and porn speak with the tone and mindset of a villain that has zero concern for a human beings life, in all reality, amused by their opponents (citizens) inability to comprehend their hidden agenda due to ignorance and lack of knowledge.

School and education is one of the key routes to success in America...or is it? Well, perhaps it is if you’re able to afford the rising tuition costs and bear the heavy weight of steep student loan debt. As a reader, you can literally feel the author’s raw emotion of frustration, discontent, and disagreement in America’s decision to place an exceptionally high price tag on a higher learning, raging through the words of the poem. In this particular piece, the narrator's blunt cynicism and satirical articulation teases all of the individuals who lean on the pursuit of education to secure a certain degree of success. Personifying ‘student loans’ as a character, Jamell writes;

“go for your associates, bachelors, and masters, even a doctorate, the more time you spend in school, the more debt you’ll be in…” then

you thought those pieces of paper would lead to happiness and a career, meanwhile you're unhappy, not in the field you want to be in. Yup, that’s the average person in this day and age and reality. It’s not sad for me, I’m going to get my money back somehow, someway…” as if to be a student’s worst nightmare!

The author is direct and concise in this expressive collection and despite the societal controversies that surround many of the subjects addressed in this book, his candor let’s us know that he is willing to stand up for what he believes in, especially if it’s for a good cause! And what better cause to fight for than that of humanity?

In truth, it may be frightening or even disturbing to imagine (as a person or an American citizen) political and governmental leaders in cahoots with low-down scandals pumped by gluttonous greed, even so, it is well worth reading and has the ability to affect any single life inclined to see the world we live in from someone else's perspective, to consider the voice of one who is passionately devoted to uncovering the dark veil of secrets, so that in the end, his commitment to what his heart feels is right, establishes a gateway to true freedom from the oppressors of society.

We rate this book 5 stars and encourage readers to get their copy today!

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Monday, February 20, 2017

America Under Mind Control-New Book Releases March 10th!

My next book is due in a few weeks and it is currently on pre-order on Amazon, Barnes and Noble, Apple and Kobo bookstores. It's a book that will deal with all of the issues of American society and how we are under mind control all of the time.

Here's the synopsis for the book:

What happens when society takes control of your mind and how you think? This book speaks on all of the issues going on in today’s society and how the rich, wealthy and elite do everything in their power to keep the American people under mind control. There are different tactics and ways they use to make sure we as a people don’t strive for greatness in life. It starts from when you’re a child in the education system and how we’re taught to be obedient and to respect authority all the way into Corporate America. Our minds are programmed on a daily basis and whether we realize it or not, we don’t take the time to see the bigger picture of how the world is run. From the music we listen to, to the television we watch, the politics they control and infiltrate, this book deals head on with how we the American people are controlled by so many messages on a daily basis. It’s a book that speaks truth into how this country and the world is in shambles and how we need to come together as a nation and as a people and do better. 



Sunday, February 5, 2017

The Struggles and Growth of a Man-The Writing Process

The Struggles and Growth of a Man was my first book, I started the process of writing this book over a year ago. I knew that I wanted to write a story about a man and his daily struggles. It took a little while to think over the chapters (which is how I start the process) and once I figured that out, I started writing. I also wanted to name the character a common name so race doesn't play a factor into the book. People like to say certain names are common amongst races and I didn't want that to be the process of writing this book and for the readers.

After naming the characters for this book, I knew that writing the book in a traditional format wouldn't work for me (I've tried writing books that way and it never worked for me). So I decided to write a book in poetry format and make it a story of the character Robert chronicling his life and the struggles he's going through. People forget that men do struggle in life and that society teaches us to hold things in and to be strong. Sometimes we can't always be strong and we do need to emote and feel things.

This book was fun to write and I felt no pressure writing it because I knew that I was writing in my favorite format which is poetry. The main character Robert was going to be my focus throughout the whole book but then I incorporated another character, his brother Michael. Being able to put in another character that has an impact on the main character's life was important to me. Having some chapters with Michael writing to Robert, allowed me to write different emotions and feelings and also gave me a chance to have Robert show more compassion and not feel like he had to be so manly with his thoughts.

While Robert's mother, father and his mentor Mr. Marble are in the book too, they weren't character's that were writing their thoughts and feelings. I didn't want to take away from the focus of Robert and make the book about anyone else. I wanted the book to be mainly focused on a man struggling with life, situations and experiences and how he's developing his mind and soul to be a better man, human being and person.

It took me a few weeks to write the book and another week or so to edit it (granted nothing comes out perfect) and I changed the book cover 3 times. That was a learning experience for me with doing book covers and now I know I have to be more diligent with what my book covers will be going forward.

For my first book, there were successes and failures and I learned from them. My book cover was one thing I learned and I applied a lot of other mistakes I made and made sure I didn't repeat them again with my next 2 books I published last year. A lot of my mistakes was promoting my book way too much on social media (which you don't need to do as much) and I had a hard time trying to find different ways to promote my book and my brand. I didn't have a readership of my poetry before I published my book.

There are excerpts from my book on my author profile page so please take the time to read that on my Bublish page. Be good and follow your dreams.

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Sunday, January 22, 2017

My Book Review of The World We Live In Part 1

Recently, I just received a review from Realistic Poetry International for my book, "The World We Live In" Here is the review below:

“A poetry book that exposes the truth like you have never read before!”

What Does It Mean to be Human? Internal Conflict: Battling Inner Demons

We are quite familiar with the prolific work of Author Jamell Crouthers, never disappointed by the undying and relentless zeal he commits towards prominent and common societal issues. He uses his poetry as a weapon against ignorance, and it is like a radiant lamp of light in the dark, and edification for the mind, heart, and spirit.

Firstly, we would like to recognize one of the author’s signature trademarks when it comes to his writing approach and how he communicates the characters feelings, thoughts, and ideas to the reader. Through the use of effective characterization, he displays human feelings, attitudes, beliefs, actions, and various attributes of society that impact our human nature. For example, alcohol, one of the world's most renown pleasure's, usually associated with fun, enjoyment, and celebration.

Heather, a fictional character in the book, tells us how she chooses to toxify her body with excessive amounts of liquor, compromising her health, relationships, and inevitably her own life. The alcohol controls her and she says, “I don’t know when will be the last time I drink alcohol, I keep saying today is the day, but then I look up for another bottle", boldly admitting her addiction. Whether you are or have been an alcoholic, or the person(s) that has dealt with an individual who is, understanding what it does to a person’s mind is unbelievable. From blackouts, to severe kidney damage (like Heather), the liqour takes a toll on a human being, mentally and physically.

For Heather, alcoholism is king of her life, in fact, she is even depicted as being in a 'drunken’ state as she composes her confession. Her broken and dying spirit is hopeless, and her thoughts are confined to sub-standard beliefs of her character, unable to forgive herself and positive that no one else will either, especially her children. There is a quote that comes to mind that helps explain Heather’s hopelessness, ‘I’ve got nothing to lose’, though in all reality she does. She speaks as if she has given up already, tired and beat-down from a past founded off of alcohol.

As she opens up about her life, Heather pulls from the roots of her family tree, which is coincidentally where many of her entrenched behaviors and habits originate from. In her case, her family tree reveals a long, substantial, generational history of family members, including her mom and dad, also in lust with bottle.

A rugged, problematic, and dysfunctional upbringing didn’t help at all. As a child, Heather was constantly immersed in violence, thus, bitter seeds of anger, pain, resentment, and hopelessness escort her unto the path of continued misery. Disheartening. How can a child grow up normal under such harsh conditions, you wonder? And is it really possible to move on from such traumatizing experiences? It’s easy to say, that’s for sure; but what does it take to put into action? These are some of the questions that arise when considering her situation.

In the cold words of Heather, she professes; “My body will detoxify, but my demons will still haunt me”; which gives us more insight into why she continues to feed into her sickness - her beliefs. Yes, she has been affected by the brutal adversity of life, as we are all subject to in one way or another, but the core issue remains, as with mostly all of the characters written of in this compilation, and that is belief. Seems small, right? How can your beliefs trump your feelings, emotions, circumstances, and people? Well, right now, Heather believes the worst for herself, confounded by her situation; in result, the more she believes that the alcohol is the solution to her unhappiness, the more real and acceptable it is in her mind as the only solution to her instability. The alcohol is killing her, slowly, but surely. And in her intoxicated mind, this ‘weapon’ is actually a good thing, even though she tells herself it isn’t.

In most instances, the analogy, 'inner demon', is typically referring to an internal conflict of character with a person, as the individual struggles with a debative dual conscious, one part advocating to do the right thing, while the other part accommodates and endorses the very thing that is ruining the person's life. These ‘internal demons’ that Heather speaks of are typically the 'invisible' driving forces that influence the broken, abused, and conflicted to drown themselves in a thick pool of sorrows, just like Heather - and she is the only one to make the decision to overcome. Will she, is the question? Unfortunately, for now, her anxiety is eating away at her soul as the time approaches for her to face a DUI case in court. She’s already lost her children, and as she contemplates court, awaiting her unpromising fate...that inner demon whispers that it is the perfect occasion for a shot - thankfully, she has an epiphany that will hopefully be the end to a new beginning.

As you can see, this is not your ordinary book discussing societal issues, mixing in the corruption of politics and wavering laws. It is a series that documents minor and major important topics that are relevant to humans, period. Author Jamell Crouthers dives deep into the most sensitive, purest, and secretive realm of the human mind in order to display, in the most candid manner, just how dark, disturbing, and grave the thoughts of a person undergoing any type of challenge can be. There is a definite and noticeable trend of self-hate, disappointment and dissatisfaction, revealing the characters weaknesses and inability to accept the unpleasantries of life. Despite the pessimistic and negative ambience that encapsulates the defeatist mentality many of the characters possess, you can perceive a small voice, like a whisper, in the background crying, screaming, desperate to get back to a healthy and stable condition... but those dreadful demons, well, only Jesus can expunge, permanently.

We appreciate this book tremendously, as it is such a blunt, raw, and honest account of human beings and contains the power needed to trigger your emotions, for better or worst. Often, in a judgemental world, honesty is not as acclaimed as what it should be, but Jamell stands out for this fact, which is such a notable trait for writers!

We couldn’t read this book without mentioning Christina’s tale, for she too, suffers from acute postpartum depression, like Heather, but a bottle of liquor won’t dare give her back what was deliberately stolen from her, and that is her body. To imagine a person forcing themselves upon you, strangers, taunting and taking pleasure in such a disgraceful and abominable act, simply put, is infuriating! Pure evil. This young woman was perfectly normal before the day she was viciously gangraped by four different guys, and ever since, her nights are plagued by recurrent horrid nightmares and profuse cold sweats. Her tear ducts can no longer produce liquid and she scrubs her skin to death, as she feels the soap and water can never clean the filth from her body, stained from the predators wicked hands. This is an incident that can in no way, shape, or form be taken lightly, it’s poisonous sting having a long-lasting effect that even a conviction cannot satisfy. It seems implausible that this transgression is one of society's central issues, yet it is, and because of it, innocent people are projected into an unfamiliar world of shame and seclusion.

Disgusted of her own skin, reluctant to a man's touch, descending into a fathomless sea of deep, dark, blue sorrow and sadness, Christina must prepare herself to confront the accused in court, and it is more than difficult to bear the thought of seeing their wretched faces, again, as memories of their savagery replays like a record stuck on repeat. Christina is troubled by sinister visions of the attackers 'clammy hands’, and sleep will never be the same with all of the discomforting sensations of being fondled keeping her awake. Even if the rapists are convicted, sentenced to prison for life - if Christina does not find a way to overcome the torture infecting her heart, this damaging experience, like Heather, will attempt to hold her captive, too.

So, will she move forward? Will Christina ever be the same again? She can be the only soul to determine that. Regardless, it is terribly heartbreaking to hear the internal cries of Christina in this poem, and unfortunately, prompts you to question the character of humanity, in general.

Like Charlie; who lives with an unbearable sex addiction, deeming his own self as a 'pervert', confessing the fact that he confides in anything sexual to stimulate and satisfy his unmanageable desires. He even admits that he lost the one woman whom he viewed as more than just a sexual object. Or was it more like a sacrifice?

This poem displays how thoughts quickly transform into actions, for Charlie's fetish for porn and stripclubs isn’t enough, no; his overly excited mind and body craves more, pushing him towards the "real thing" rather than some fictional-pretend fantasy that merely exists in the mind. What’s particularly interesting with Charlie, as with most of the other personas in this book, is how honest and brutal he is, internally. He seems torn between feeling thrilled and excited about his obsession, and bearing the guilt of how extensive and salacious it is. Either way, he falls into the arms of infinite lust, following his wild instincts of lecherous lewdness.

Though many societal issues surrounding humans root from our environment and circumstances, there are a number of societal matters that frequently stem from low self-esteem, conflict of image, and failure to meet the ideal expectations of society. Subsequently, women (and men), young and old, will do anything to fit into societies paradoxical standards. And Stephanie is willing to do what it takes to accomplish her goal and dream of being a model, which is exactly why she lives with an unhealthy eating disorder. Sure, she is well aware that it’s wrong, but it’s one of those ‘fast’ ways of getting quick and easy results, and with her being a full-figured young lady, the ideal image of being a high-fashion model is far off. Even being a ‘plus-size’ model is not good enough. Her testimony reveals just how important it is for humans to feel ‘normal’, yet the twisted part about this, is that ‘normal’ seems to be controlled and dictated by unknown mass sources who market based off of money rather than truth, even when it comes to image! Stephanie and other girls like her should never have to feel like they must compromise their health to ‘fit in’, whether it’s at school or an industry. But who is immune to the world’s pressures?

What's compelling about this poem is how it provides more than one reason as to why Stephanie feels uncomfortable in her own skin, going as far as to mention how societal standards ultimately influence culture (clothes, food, hobbies, entertainment, etc.); which then influences decisions and choices, which inevitably influences and affects our core beliefs. For example, once upon a time in history, a more curvier, voluptuous woman was considered, ‘ideal’', whereas now, in a new-age generation, in the world of high-fashion modeling, eating disorders, bulimia, and even starvation are all too familiar tactics to ensure the word ‘fat’ or ‘gain’ remain defeated.

The truth is, the ‘standards’ that many of us believe are real, are simply only temporary and fluctuating trends liable to alter at any moment. But the invisible weight and overwhelming pressure of rejection, failure, and mediocrity, when in pursuit of your dreams will always dare to challenge your beliefs! This poetic account also highlighted some of the contradicting stereotypes that people must face simply because of their size, and it’s unbelievable! The dirty looks from women (and men), the sexual abuse enacted by perverts eyes, the controversy of losing weight and how much is enough, what the reason of losing weight is for...it’s ridiculous. This is why we stress the power of the mind. Society will tell and do as it pleases, but if you can distinguish the difference between right and wrong, while remaining true to who you really are, it is definitely possible to escape the subliminal conditioning!

Our favorite part about Stephanie’s powerful testimony is when she says, “Modeling is my passion and living healthy is the key component. Here is a start to a new beginning as me and my mom have a toast, to accomplishing goals, dreams, and pursuing happiness.” Truly inspiring, especially for women!

It all starts with a thought...so what happens when the root of your problem inhabits the brain? It is the organ that helps us to remain competent while handling our daily responsibilities, but what does one do when this valuable gem is unhealthy, unstable, and demented? ‘You never really know what it’s like to be without something until it’s gone’, is an old saying that speaks for itself. This poem is riveting to the bone and paints an image of a never-ending illness that no medication or doctor can cure, depression.

Pills and prescribed medications are only temporary fixes that Tyler witnesses his deranged sister hypnotized by, often dazed in lucid hallucinations, which doesn’t provide any real sense of hope for his own life. Cancer and the sudden death of the only two people who supplied him with unconditional love adds to his heart’s hollow void, and it is saddening.

It’s like a thief coming into the night and robbing you of any happiness that you may have had. Bright, sunny mornings appear clouded and dark; the weight of the world is just much too heavy for him to even climb out of bed, and mood swings are an understatement when considering how temperamental Tyler’s emotions can be. Contemplations of suicide deceptively appear as the nearest path to peace and the only way to free his mind from the dangerous abyss of depression. Tyler represents an entire population of individuals living with a mental disorder; and whether it be depression or schizophrenia, not being or feeling like you are in control of your own mind is a dark place to be.

In conclusion, we deeply admire and respect this book as well as the author. The content magnifies the forbidden ideas that most people won't or don’t just outright admit. And to be quite honest, admitting, confessing, and honesty are the first steps in moving forward. Granted, as human beings, we deserve our privacy and are indeed entitled to live out our lives as we please; nonetheless, powerful books such as this remind us that we are not alone, we have all gone through something, if not going through a challenge at this very moment. Jamell is right; empathy is key, as the problem you think you will never have to worry about today, can be the one thing that drastically changes your life forever, tomorrow.

On the contrary, as heartbreaking as it can be to bear the profound and extensive adversities of the world and how they change and affect us, we are all responsible for the decisions that we do have control over, specifically when it comes to self. Digesting all of the characters’ explicit, and at times, graphical confessions, put into perspective just how powerful all of the other things around us can be - alcohol, dreams and goals, medication, the media, TV, trends, death, sex, sexuality, other people, and the list goes on. All of these contributors clearly influence our likes, dislikes, wants, goals, desires, thoughts, impulses, and last but not least – actions. We will close our analysis with three words - Do the right thing, and that is exactly what Jamell is doing with his gift of poetry!

Author Jamell Crouthers, superb presentation! What you are doing with your poetry is amazing, dignified, and noble. There is no doubt that anyone who reads this book, will positively be affected. We rate this book 5 Stars! It is an emotional and realistic account created to penetrate the human heart.



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The Struggles and Growth of a Man Part 2 Releases December 15th!

For those who don't know, my first book is the Struggles and Growth of a Man. It's about a young man in his 20s named Robert who ...